i am trying to break your heart

p.s.

2008-09-08T04:46:32Z

for those of you attempting to get a hold of me my phone is m.i.a. i will have it back in my possession hopefully today or tomorrow!

iibloomblaum @ 2008-09-05T10:27:00

2008-09-05T14:33:02Z

there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I'm too tough for him,
I say, stay in there, I'm not going
to let anybody see
you.
there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I pour whiskey on him and inhale
cigarette smoke
and the whores and the bartenders
and the grocery clerks
never know that
he's
in there.

there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I'm too tough for him,
I say,
stay down, do you want to mess
me up?
you want to screw up the
works?
there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I'm too clever, I only let him out
at night sometimes
when everybody's asleep.
I say, I know that you're there,
so don't be
sad.
then I put him back,
but he's singing a little
in there, I haven't quite let him
die
and we sleep together like
that
with our
secret pact
and it's nice enough to
make a woman
weep, but I don't
weep, do
you?

it's time for a change.

iibloomblaum @ 2008-06-27T11:39:00

2008-06-27T15:41:20Z

through the window you looked much sweeter.

iibloomblaum @ 2007-08-23T16:12:00

2007-08-23T20:12:19Z

it felt like fall today.

iibloomblaum @ 2007-07-28T13:40:00

2007-07-28T17:59:55Z

one.

it's 10 o' clock in arizona

2007-05-22T17:18:29Z

spin
spin
spin
spin
spin
sometimes i fear it's all an illusion.

iibloomblaum @ 2007-04-26T23:03:00

2007-04-27T03:12:56Z

iibloomblaum @ 2007-01-28T20:13:00

2007-01-29T01:14:14Z

we accept the love we think we deserve.

sometimes it takes

2007-01-26T00:50:16Z

-a good friend
-cold weather
-remembering and sharing moments of intoxication involving hair ties and ripped jeans
-coffee
-chinese food
-9th grade tunes
-remembering who you used to be

to remind me to breathe

maybe one day, things will be different

iibloomblaum @ 2007-01-10T20:22:00

2007-01-11T01:32:35Z

dave, you don't have to drive me everywhere anymore

2007-01-02T19:14:42Z

mah wittle behbee mercedes is coming home to me tomorrow :D:D:D:D

it's been a week.

2006-12-11T18:17:48Z

car crash.
my fault.
something beautiful ruined.
glass and metal strewn over dirty streets.
cold and sharp to the touch, cutting through my skin as punishment.
carelessness.
not thinking.
but it can be fixed, right?
right?
i'll put everything back together myself.
brand new.
like it was before.
it can be done, right?
right?

gosh.

2006-11-07T03:01:25Z

today seemed to go on forever.

please.

2006-10-31T04:36:00Z

don't break my heart.
i'm too weak to pick up the peices.

if you say run, i'll run with you.

2006-10-24T03:57:10Z

my thoughts all seem to blend together.
i'm in a daze, i wish i could clear the fog that is my thoughts and seek out the light that is my emotions.
take my hand and lead me out of this haze.
for i can't leave on my own.

wtf.

2006-10-21T21:58:43Z

winter will be here before i have time to search out old sweaters and hoodies.
i hope my heart is more prepared than my closet and warmer than my favourite hoodie.

!!!!!!!

2006-10-13T01:52:16Z

the yeah yeah yeahs tomorrow with mandyyyy.
ghfjgdjhgjhfdgjdh:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

i

2006-10-05T20:22:11Z

have a headache.
withdrawals from a certain someone.
i wonder if you feel the same.

!!

2006-09-25T22:51:28Z

my birfday is on wednesday
rated r movies here i come!

ohh.

2006-09-18T02:33:13Z

depression visits me on occasion.
it comes in waves.
i'm drowning.
it's an odd sort of drowning.
the sort where you sit in a body of water and look towards the sky until finally, you float to the surface.
at times i feel as if i could sit at the bottom and watch the world pass me by forever.
it's a frightening feeling, never wanting to taste the breath of life.

no lies, just love

2006-09-13T21:52:46Z

i wish i could stop this whirlwind of thought.
your voice sounded harsh today.

i'm in love.

2006-09-10T20:57:22Z

with a couple things.

mmmmmm cursive, death cab, and minus the bear are a comin' to town!!

we have the map to the piano

2006-09-05T10:25:54Z

i have a feeling my body reflects every worry i currently possess/have possessed.
when i stop worrying, i'll stop being sick i've decieded.
but there is no need to fret, right?
i wish someone would assure me this.
or perhaps they already have.
or have they?
i need to become a better listener.

uhhhhh.

2006-08-31T21:51:20Z

pick five people from your friends list and say something anonymous to them. don't say who they are and don't tell them until they guess.

one. i hope this winter is the summer we never had together, and go to the yeah yeah yeahs with meeeee!!!!!!
two. you're the warm hug i need after a long day.
three. your dress is quite lonely in my closet, and this pea is missing you.
four. you've changed.
five. what would i do without you?

eeeeeeeeeeeee

2006-08-30T00:14:54Z

the yeah yeah yeahs are playing in orlando in october.
whoooooo wants to gooooooooo?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!??!?!?!?