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for those of you attempting to get a hold of me my phone is m.i.a. i will have it back in my possession hopefully today or tomorrow!
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there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I'm too tough for him,
I say, stay in there, I'm not going
to let anybody see
you.
there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I pour whiskey on him and inhale
cigarette smoke
and the whores and the bartenders
and the grocery clerks
never know that
he's
in there.

there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I'm too tough for him,
I say,
stay down, do you want to mess
me up?
you want to screw up the
works?
there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I'm too clever, I only let him out
at night sometimes
when everybody's asleep.
I say, I know that you're there,
so don't be
sad.
then I put him back,
but he's singing a little
in there, I haven't quite let him
die
and we sleep together like
that
with our
secret pact
and it's nice enough to
make a woman
weep, but I don't
weep, do
you?

it's time for a change.

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through the window you looked much sweeter.
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it felt like fall today.
Current Mood:
:D
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spin
spin
spin
spin
spin
sometimes i fear it's all an illusion.
Current Mood:
uh.
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we accept the love we think we deserve.
Current Music:
circa survive-we're all theives
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-a good friend
-cold weather
-remembering and sharing moments of intoxication involving hair ties and ripped jeans
-coffee
-chinese food
-9th grade tunes
-remembering who you used to be

to remind me to breathe

maybe one day, things will be different

Current Mood:
everything is gonna be alright everything is gonna be alright
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mah wittle behbee mercedes is coming home to me tomorrow :D:D:D:D
Current Mood:
excited excited
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car crash.
my fault.
something beautiful ruined.
glass and metal strewn over dirty streets.
cold and sharp to the touch, cutting through my skin as punishment.
carelessness.
not thinking.
but it can be fixed, right?
right?
i'll put everything back together myself.
brand new.
like it was before.
it can be done, right?
right?
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today seemed to go on forever.
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don't break my heart.
i'm too weak to pick up the peices.
Current Mood:
distressed distressed
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my thoughts all seem to blend together.
i'm in a daze, i wish i could clear the fog that is my thoughts and seek out the light that is my emotions.
take my hand and lead me out of this haze.
for i can't leave on my own.
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winter will be here before i have time to search out old sweaters and hoodies.
i hope my heart is more prepared than my closet and warmer than my favourite hoodie.
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the yeah yeah yeahs tomorrow with mandyyyy.
ghfjgdjhgjhfdgjdh:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
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have a headache.
withdrawals from a certain someone.
i wonder if you feel the same.
Current Mood:
blah blah
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my birfday is on wednesday
rated r movies here i come!
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depression visits me on occasion.
it comes in waves.
i'm drowning.
it's an odd sort of drowning.
the sort where you sit in a body of water and look towards the sky until finally, you float to the surface.
at times i feel as if i could sit at the bottom and watch the world pass me by forever.
it's a frightening feeling, never wanting to taste the breath of life.
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